Right now I’m held captive by a six month old. I am armed with a remote and an iPad as she sleeps in my arms. When this happens I either stare for hours at the TV or I start thinking. As tired as I am, I have decided to do the latter…..sigh. Luck would have it, a repeated phrase has been popping up everywhere I look. This is where I will either run and hide or face it head on. Today I’m feeling brave.
Honor the process. There it is. It’s out in the open for all to see. It is a nagging phrase. It’s a phrase that sometimes makes me want to fling myself on the floor like a two-year old until I get my way. But with who? I have encountered this more times than I’d like to admit, and the same questions always arise. Insert whining here…..Why can’t I get from point A to point M where I’m living my dream? Why do I have to work my way through B, C, the dreadful H, and painful K? Why do I have to be twisted into a pretzel when working through the challenging knots in my life?
I heard an analogy years ago to explain suffering and I feel it’s fitting to bring it up here. A pearl starts out as a tiny grain of sand. As the water washes over it, the little speck is rubbed and rubbed and rubbed until it is raw, but with each gentle lap of water it is transformed layer by layer. Eventually that little grain of sand becomes something beautiful and priceless. Ugh. I hate when something rings true. Of course those of us that are in the process of transformation have to first believe that we have value before we can find beauty in it. If not, it will feel as though God or the Universe is throwing daggers at our soul.
In all my fussing and rushing I have realized time and time again, that I need to slow down and enjoy the process of my transformation. Like a butterfly, if I don’t honor the time to mature and morph into something else, I will miss my flight. I need to be responsible with the process in order to allow the doors of destiny to open. Besides, if I want to skip this part, I may miss my entire life 🙂
What do you struggle with when pursuing a dream?