I’ve been struggling to find time in my life. It feels like the end of a winter season, where things are wanting to sprout and begin a new growth cycle. It’s a difficult place to be in.
I was going to continue on with my Julia Cameron book/chapter review but decided since I’m needing a break, we all could use one 🙂 I will continue it shortly. In the meantime, I am going to reassess and move forward where my heart guides me.
Lately, I’ve been reflective on how much I want my dreams to materialize. I’ve been to a few pity parties (they really aren’t as fun as they may seem), and I’ve thought about quitting. I’m exhausted on the inside, fighting to remain on this path; however, what I am learning is invaluable.
Before anything can bloom, the seed has to first be planted, then it has to die. Only then will it be able to rise and blossom into what it was supposed to be. This is a terribly painful process of letting go. Selfish ambition cannot exist in this place.
I’m a firm believer that we all possess gifts of some kind. These aren’t given to us for our enjoyment, rather they have been given to help others. For this reason, I have decided not to quit. People who achieve their dreams and make an impact in this world by helping others, did whatever they needed to to achieve it. If I want it bad enough, I will do the same.
I read a blog post by someone I think is an incredible writer and would like to share it here. Take time and read about bleeding for your dream. It truly hit home for me. Maybe it will have the same impact on you. http://thebleedinginkwell.com/2012/06/01/why-you-should-work-hard-enough-at-your-dream-that-you-bleed-for-it/